Helloo my welapotpot!

Our monthsary is coming next week, and before we celebrate, I want to clear things up. I know I've confused you many times, but right now, I want to express how I truly feel.

My baby, I know yung pagkadry ko sa chat made you overthink—feeling na iiwan kita or that you're losing me. Pero to be honest, I'm the one losing you. I've realized that every time na nagaaway tayo, it's like we're slowly giving up on each other, diba? Kaya I'm here now, trying to prove to you na hindi kita sasaktan ulit ng ganon. I've made a mistake by changing and slowly lumayo ang loob ko sa'yo every time we argued. I've been immature. I never liked our away, but it doesn't mean I stopped loving you. Alam ko na hindi pwedeng away tayo nang away every week, diba? So dumating tayo sa point na we thought our relationship was hopeless, and I had thoughts that weren't good either.

I realized that I hurt you because of my actions every time we fought. I never intended to hurt you or make you cry, pero nangyari pa rin, nagawa ko parehas. Slowly, I've become someone different—hindi na ako yung Miguel na kilala mo dati, diba baby? Kaya here I am, my love, apologizing for what I've done.

My Wela, nasaktan kita, napaiyak kita, napaisip kita ng masasama—and I hated myself for that. This is my third chance, and ayoko na ng pang-apat. I want to show you, tita, tito, and even ate that I can handle this relationship and that I can take care of you in the future.

My love, please don't ever think again na you're losing me, because in reality, I'm the one who's losing you. Ikaw naman po palagi yung babaeng gusto kong paniwalain na kaya kong magstay sa'yo kahit anong mangyari. Kahit ano pang ibigay ni Lord na pagsubok sa atin, I will stay.

I would like to prove that I'm really worthy of you, that I'm serious about us. I'm very sorry for all the things I've done that hurt you. I'm guilty, and I know you never deserved those. But baby, I'll make it up to you this time—hindi palaging ikaw. Ibabalik ko yung dating ako, para alam mong ako pa rin 'to, yung taong pinili mo, yung inlove at kinikilig ka noon. Gusto ko ulit pasayahin ka, pakiligin ka with my corny jokes, and maspoil kita. As your future boyfriend, it's my role to guide us and take care of you for as long as I breathe.

Kaya, I'm stating my promises again. My love, we've seen a lot in our relationship—the hardships, the kiligs, and the random moments. But what affected us the most is yung away. Kaya, my Wela, I promise to you and to Him na hindi ka na po iiyak ng malala dahil sa akin, and hindi na kita masasaktan ng sobrang lala. Ayoko na ulit makita o marinig na malungkot ka. Even when it seems like wala akong pake, nasasaktan pa rin ako kapag malungkot ka, my baby.

Sana you'll trust me again in this process of proving myself to you. I'll also leave the biggest promise I have so far: I will completely stop every bad thing na nagagawa ko outside our relationship. Aayusin ko sarili ko, para sa akin at para sa'yo. And sana, gabayan tayo ni God sa journey natin.

I love you, my baby! I will stay forever, and we'll never ever lose eachother!